She's Blue
I was woken by a noise so foreign I cowered under my sheets. But curiosity got the better of me.
It was still dark outside. I had no concept of this time of day. I would sleep at 9pm, wake up at 7am, have breakfast and be off to school. As far as I knew, nothing happened during those hours I slept. But that night was different. I could hear screaming coming from upstairs, then the words I would never forget.
“She’s blue”
I snuggled under the sheets petrified, waiting for the door to open, at the same time willing those noises to go away. Nobody came.
After a while I heard sirens. Sirens meant police cars right?
I heard people scrambling downstairs, some conversation, some crying, then the front door closing and the sound of sirens disappearing into the night.
The silence eased me back to sleep.
So this was what a dream was …
Morning arrived and the first thing I saw upon opening my eyes was the face of the nice Japanese lady from Shizuoka who had come to London to take care of me. She helped me change into my uniform and we went downstairs where breakfast was waiting. She’d learned to make toast soldiers and soft boiled eggs, just as I liked them. Lunchbox readily packed into my school bag, I got in the car for the short ride to school. I remembered the dream but convinced myself that all was fine. Everything seemed fine. Just another school day.
That was some forty years ago. I only remember glimpses of life back then. But that night I remember with such clarity. I remember my mother and father coming back the following day. That’s when they told me.
“That is the first time I cried in years” my father said.
“This is the first time I believe in God” my mother said.
The funeral happened on the weekend. I stayed home.
To this day I have not told a single soul of that night. As far as anyone knew, I slept like a schoolboy through to morning. But that memory I tucked away at the back of a drawer.
I never really knew Natasha, my little sister. She was a tiny little baby. Once in a while I’d do a short mental calculation of how old Natasha would be right now, how she would look, whether we’d be close. Perhaps she’d have grown up in theatre and ended up playing Eponine in Les Misérables on the West End.
I like to think we’d be the best of friends.
This article was inspired by Drowning in the ‘Pursuit of Happiness’ by Irene Hackett. Thank you for unlocking the drawer.
I am adding a link to a wonderful article by Donna-Luisa Eversley The Beach and The Lighthouse. Natasha, I hope you can see your name written in the sand on a beach on an island half way across the planet. Donna-Luisa, I am so touched by this act, I am lost for words. Thanks beBee for introducing me to truly great friends.
Sudden Infant Death Syndrome, more commonly known as cot death, is a diagnosis given after autopsy when cause of death is still unclear. According to Lancet, SIDS resulted in 15,000 deaths globally in 2013. It can happen at anytime during the first year of a child’s life, but is most common between 1 month and 4 months of age. There is a lot of advice given on how to reduce the risk of cot deaths. From what I have read, having babies sleep on their backs can reduce the risk somewhat, but I would also suggest a healthy dose of common sense. Do not clutter the mattress with soft furry toys or blankets, have a relatively firm mattress, and fresh and flowing air. According the American Academy of Pediatrics, the use of pacifiers may also reduce the risk of SIDS.
(Title picture of Eva Noblezada, currently playing Eponine in Les Misérables at the Queen’s Theatre, London)
Dean Owen is Co-Founder of Quimojo, a revolutionary new concept in Global Campus Recruitment.
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Ken Boddie
7年前 #34
Dean Owen
7年前 #33
Thanks Ken-san. It doesn't look like it was, but time to dust off the DVD and watch it again (one of my favourite movies)
Ken Boddie
7年前 #32
Dean Owen
7年前 #31
Is that a Patch Adams inspired event? Marked in my calendar for next year. Will find a red nose and add a selfie to this post on June 24th. I loved your little poem (for once!) :) Thanks Ken-san
Lisa Gallagher
7年前 #30
that's a great idea Dean Owen
Ken Boddie
7年前 #29
Dean Owen
7年前 #28
Making me blush! Thank you for stopping by and for your beautiful comment. My heart is indeed lighter and my day brighter!
Dean Owen
7年前 #27
Grief is weird isn't it. I never really grieved. It was only after decades and finally writing this that I actually felt deep emotions of grief. It was easy to lock away in the back drawer, but just wonderful to dust off this memory and share.... Thanks so much Sarah Elkins
Dean Owen
7年前 #26
It is easy to miss articles these days with a faster feed and more and more bees. We should perhaps encourage people to subscribe to their favourite writers and check their emailed newsletters.
🐝 Fatima G. Williams
7年前 #25
Sarah Elkins
7年前 #24
Lisa Gallagher
7年前 #23
I'm sorry I missed your reply Dean Owen and I just wrote on Donna's buzz I needed to read this because I seem to be missing your stories. wow, I think I'm missing my mind somewhere lol. This was a good yet, sad read again. They do say to lay babies on their backs now, no blankets, no toys and yes open air. I remember fearing SIDS when my babies were little. We swaddled them and laid them on their sides back then.
Dean Owen
7年前 #22
Thanks Donna-Luisa Eversley. Right now I feel like writing her name in the sand at your beach.
Dean Owen
7年前 #21
Thanks @Lisa Gallagher. I don't know if you saw Pascal's story, similar, but the circumstance of discovery are like something out of a novel -https://www.bebee.com/producer/@pascal-derrien-leinster/hold-up-the-memory-bank
Dean Owen
7年前 #20
Thanks Lisa Gallagher. I don't know if you saw Pascal's story, similar, but the circumstance of discovery are like something out of a novel. -https://www.bebee.com/redirect/5/173132?u=aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYmViZWUuY29tL3Byb2R1Y2VyL0BwYXNjYWwtZGVycmllbi1sZWluc3Rlci9ob2xkLXVwLXRoZS1tZW1vcnktYmFuaw==&post=720479
Lisa Gallagher
7年前 #19
Dean Owen
7年前 #18
Thanks Phil. I was wondering if it the same in every country. I know in Japan there is always a huge debate amongst mothers on whether to have a baby sleep on it's back or front. It is a particular anxious period. Much appreciate your kind words.
Dean Owen
7年前 #17
From what you say, and from what I know of you, she must be quite a character! Send her the note!
Phil Friedman
7年前 #16
Dean Owen
7年前 #15
You and your sister must have had some pretty explosive conversations! Does she read your blogs?
Dean Owen
7年前 #14
Thanks Don Kerr, our timing is such that you have once again become the last thing I read before calling it a night. Looking forward to hearing more of what you have locked away!
don kerr
7年前 #13
Dean Owen
7年前 #12
Thanks Gert Scholtz. I think beBee is slowing unlocking all our stories. Pretty amazing. As you know I only started getting active on social media late last year. I just crossed 1500 connections on LinkedIn, but realized today that I don't "know" any of them and they don't "know" me! But look what is happening here! Friendships being made, business relationships.... (Oh, and thanks for sending me that VC contact in Singapore, will reply to your email tomorrow)
Pascal Derrien
7年前 #11
Brian McKenzie son who is 11 has been told about my story by my wife since then he seems to have understood how lucky he is to have a sister .......now they still kiill each other :-)
Dean Owen
7年前 #10
Oh I do hope so Pascal Derrien, and maybe we can all four of us meet together one day...
Gert Scholtz
7年前 #9
Pascal Derrien
7年前 #8
maybe she has meet Sylvie who knows :-)
Dean Owen
7年前 #7
You are so right Irene Hackett. Like Pascal, this was a taboo subject for most of our lives. It's time to celebrate the lives of ones we've lost. You have once again prompted me. I am thinking now to give little Natasha a life. A story. Thank you! :)
Kevin Pashuk
7年前 #6
Dean Owen
7年前 #5
And your comment just leaves me speechless Kevin-san. This story took me 40 years to tell. I didn't think I'd be emotional, but now that it is out, I'm a right mess! :)
Dean Owen
7年前 #4
Of all the wonderful comments I've been honoured to have received, your "To all sisters" Pascal really touched me... https://www.bebee.com/producer/@pascal-derrien-leinster/hold-up-the-memory-bank
Kevin Pashuk
7年前 #3
Pascal Derrien
7年前 #2
Dean Owen
7年前 #1